The Wedding

Ok, so after almost 5 years together, and being engaged almost just as long, I have finally decided to go through with the wedding.

My marriage to my ex-husband was so horrible that I wouldnt wish it on anyone and vowed to myself that I would NEVER marry again!! Then I met my fiance. And he was everything I had ever hoped for. But I still would not marry.

He proposed and instead of getting a yes or no like the usual bride to be would give, I sat down with him and had a long talk. Explained everything there was to explain about my ex-husband and our marriage (of course, he would be there for a lot of the aftermath) and told him that I would be willing to wear his ring and say that we were engaged, if he would be willing to wait for the wedding, as it may be a long time before I decide to actually go through with it. (Now I realize that I could have been taking a very huge risk here, and that a lot of men would usually say screw you and then just be gone). But, being the good man that he is, he said that he understood.

So now we have set a date. October 22, 2011. And to my surprise, I am very excited about it! I have been doing nothing but trying to plan this wedding and it is over a year away! The dress, the venue, the reception, the decorations, the cake, the music.....Ive already thought about all of it!!! Is that crazy??? For someone who 5 years ago swore off marriage for the rest of her life is now planning a wedding and is actually happy and excited about it??? Or is it just finally ok to move on and be happy and start a new chapter??